Every aspect of life, through every strata of experience, can be seen as either in stillness, or in some state of motion, at infinitely varying degrees. Some things are still for a long time. When these things begin to change, what we previously thought was stable within us – a belief, a feeling, our faith – is suddenly shifting. It can feel like the ground we are standing on is falling away, and this can put us in a state of spiritual and emotional turmoil. In order to find stability, we are forced to look deeper within for a place of stillness. This process is called growth.
The growth process is lifelong; it is the sifting through the impermanent and continually arriving at a subtler and subtler experience of self.
Eventually the sense of identity can become almost fluid, like an improvised dance of personality held together by an invisible but undeniable center. This mysterious center is not defined by any boundaries, or any particular quality, except that it is the only aspect of experience that is not changing. In other words, the witnessing of change is the only constant.
At first, this level awareness can seem like a direct communication with some divine other. But as the boundary between the self and other becomes more and more fluid, it can no longer be said to be two different entities. Giving and receiving merge. Self and other merge. The self becomes a simultaneous and paradoxical outflowing and receiving, an appeal for wisdom and an inner knowing, a prayer and an answer. When this universal aspect of life becomes our primary expression, divinity dances freely in and through the individual. Identity becomes conscious – not quite a choice, but a process of listening to our deepest intuition and acting in accordance.
The more one learns to swim through this multidimensional, ever-changing landscape, the more life appears to reciprocate this trust through active support. This support is sometimes called synchronicity. Some people call it miracle.
As our ability to recognize synchronicity becomes more refined, the synchronicity becomes more obvious and surprising. Mountains move. It’s almost as if life, feeling recognized and appreciated, is inspired to be more and more spectacular in its unfolding. The more we release ourselves into this merging, the more miraculous life becomes.
True spirituality is not a high, not a rush, not an altered state. It has been fine to romance it for a while, but our times call for something far more real, grounded, and responsible; something radically alive and naturally integral; something that shakes us to our very core until we stop treating spiritual deepening as a something to dabble in here and there. Authentic spirituality is not some little flicker or buzz of knowingness, not a psychedelic blast-through or a mellow hanging-out on some exalted plane of consciousness, not a bubble of immunity, but a vast fire of liberation, an exquisitely fitting crucible and sanctuary, providing both heat and light for what must be done.
“Spiritual bypassing, a term first coined by psychologist John Welwood in 1984, is the use of spiritual practices and beliefs to avoid dealing with our painful feelings, unresolved wounds, and developmental needs… It is a spiritualized strategy not only for avoiding pain but also for legitimizing such avoidance, in ways ranging from the blatantly obvious to the extremely subtle.” (read more)
What I thought was my strength is my weakness. What I thought was my weakness is my strength.
Our trauma forces us to be hyper-aware of things that might otherwise go unnoticed. If cultivated, this awareness becomes our strength.
Everyone is receiving information on many levels and dimensions – mental, emotional, physical, energetic. Each person receives a unique set of information based on who they are. The more connections they are able to make between the different types of information, the more integrated their lives become, and the more capable they are in the world. An artist is someone who actively seeks to make connections between seemingly disparate elements to help other integrate themselves.